Thursday, April 21, 2011

Mommy Guilt 101

Today is the day!  It's THE day!  IT'S THE DAY!  It's the end of Lent at sundown, which means I get to log back into Facebook.  But do I really want to?   Ummm...yeah....I will be there.

I have looked forward to today for a while, not just because of connecting with Facebook after 40 + days, but because it was the PreSchool Easter Party, and I got to be a Helper Mom.  The girls have been waiting ALL year for me to come.  Every party they asked if it was my turn.  So, today it was!  And I can say with all confidence that I made the right decision by NOT becoming a preschool teacher.  32 adorable, energy-filled, over-excited 3 and 4 year olds for 2 hours...and I am ready for a nap (or a drink)!  I made sure to point out to the teachers that they are SAINTS for what they do every day.  SAINTS.  Send a note to the Pope and start the process.

So, after games, coloring, arts and crafts, snacks, and an Easter Egg Hunt, I had to leave for work.  Abigail hesitated for 2.2 seconds before kissing my hand (she didn't want to wait for me to bend over to give her a real kiss) and then running back to the playground.  Lilli, however, well, she is my first baby.  And she was none too happy to have her mommy leave.  None. To. Happy.  I enlisted the teaching assistant to help pry her from my arms and legs, and as I walked out of the room, shoulders slumped and feeling like the WORST MOM EVER, she cried and shrieked.  Like I was ripping her heart out.  (don't worry, Lillish, mine was ripped out, too.)  Insert hours and hours of Mommy-guilt.  I have to work.  Jim and I, both working, have created a (mostly) comfortable life-style for our kids.  They don't get everything they want, but the get everything they need and then some.  They have clean clothes (and enough to clothe a small village).  They have nice toys.  They have food and shelter and heat.  And lots and lots and lots of Mommy's love.  But to keep us at that level we have to work.  She hasn't thrown a fit like that in months, so I am trying to tell myself that she was just overstimulated and that she stopped crying right after I left.  But as I sat at my office desk, I almost wanted to cry.  I wanted to be with my baby.  All of them.  Ok, maybe all of them, but not all at the same time....that's a lot of kid. 

I have nothing else funny to say....just feeling the Mommy guilt....






But did I mention that I get to go on Facebook tonight?

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

You know what's better than Mom?

Me:  You have a little fever.  Do you want to snuggle together and watch some TV?

Lilli:  No, but can I just have some jelly beans?

Sunday, April 17, 2011

I am biased...but they are cute...


Thank you kukubows.com!


Can someone eles appreciate the shoes with me?


Always a little lady!


She is growing up WAY WAY too fast.


This was the summer of 2009....umm...wow